I have also looked closer at things in my life. I am a single mom to a 3 1/2 year old gorgeous and handsome boy, J. His father is in his life at his convenience. This year I am changing that. He has not paid ONE penny in child support for almost 4 years!!!! FOUR LONG YEARS!!! Yea, $50.00 might not be much, but it's better than NOTHING. I DON'T understand it. This man also owes me restitution. He's never been held accountable for it, and I have decided tomorrow he WILL be held responsible. I am heading down to child support and restitution offices to demand an answer. I might have to get a little angry. I NEVER imagined I would be a single mom and know my son deserves better.
My life is NO WHERE where I imagined it when I was little. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or party anymore and my life is a mess right now. Yet, when I did drink, smoke, do drugs and party I had it together more than I do now. I don't get it. I thought it was supposed to be the opposite way. I guess one day I will look back and know why I went through all of this shit.
Tonight was a bad night. J's "dad" played a very cruel trick on my son and a friend gave me some insight. I burst into more tears. How COULD a grown 40 year old man be SO DAMN cruel INTENTIONALLY to a 3 1/2 year old????? After what was said, J just rolled over and fell asleep. This made me so mad. HOW DARE SOMEONE MESS WITH MY SON? Better yet, HIS "SON" too? I DON'T get it. It makes me so sad and hurt.
This blog hopefully will be my vent. Come along for the ride if you want...leave feedback and join me as I become a whole new mom. Physically, mentally and emotionally!
